Latibulate
Reaching 22 and I thought I would've figured it out by now I've been running to catch up with All the life I've run away from Attached but disengaged Where's the authenticity in feeling? Disappointed and delusional Conclusions are within reach but I can barely feel my face I am lightning that needs some grounding I'm a storm of emotion Wasted just like my potential I'm paying the debts of people I've never met If I am to go around chasing rabbits How long will it take to stumble down a rabbit hole? Seen by many misunderstood by all So I latibulate (quietly) Unsteady as a jammed-up gun Ready to shoot the wrong messenger at the right place and time As if I ever get better Get it together What if I woke up and I wasn't so desperate to run up that hill anymore? Clarity cuts deeper than the lies The closer we get to me I'll turn into a different lie I'm the space in between widely optimistic and delusional Nothing scares me more than my o...